and just when i thought things couldnt get any worse, i find this. i was looking to see if i could find the lyrics to that song and see if i really am psychic (no luck) and found this instead.



yeah...that's right. that's chris kirkpatrick, joey fatone, and yes you fucking guessed if Alfonso Ribera...yeah, CARLTON from FreshFuckingPrince of BelAir.

WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON TODAY!?

I had the best dream last night, better than any i've had in a while. sure, it's totally random and makes NO sence whatsoever, it still rocks hard. so it starts off and im in the middle of swamplands in like...louisianna or somewhere with a buncha people from the class of 2005, all driving around in a buncha cars. we stop somewhere to get ice cream, my mom was in one car, and for some reason i ended up buying brett azar ice cream, apple pie and a brownie. so we get back in the cars and drive to some like...wicked sketchy run down hillbilly house where we're all staying but it isnt the people it was originally anymore. my mom is there still, but so is a family friend that we dont talk to anymore, viggo and orlando. so viggo asks if he can drive paul, and i was like "ya, but just be careful, i'll drive with orlando." so orlando and i get in his car and we start driving through the woods in one direction, and viggo and paul go the other way. orlando drives us straight into the swamp, i'm screaming at him and trying to get out before we go under. we're walknig back soaking wet and we see viggo walking towards us with ellen (family friend). i start flipping out on viggo telling him that i loved paul and he better get him back and out of the water but he just laughed and walked away. so then somehow i end up at st. andrew's school on the campus trying to find waht building room 108 is in for quantative psych, which i had already missed a class of. i'm in the class and everything, we have class, then i leave there and go outside and chris kirpatrick is waiting for me in a car, so i get in with him and we're about to leave but theres a little asian girl on the ground so we took her in the car with us. somehow we ended up back in louisianna on the same road we were in the begining and all the ghetto thugs from the highschool were in canoes in the swamp and we watched them for a little, then stopped somewhere and met up with (of course) the other 4 members of nsync at the ice cream place. we have ice cream, justin jc lance and joey get back into their car (which was a red volvo) and chris, little asian girl and i get back into whatever we were driving, and as we're getting into our respective vehicles, justin and i started fighting with eachother back and fourth. so i said something like "by the way, sexyback SUCKS!" and he was like "HOW HAVE YOU HEARD IT!? IT ISNT SUPPOSED TO BE RELEASED UNTIL JULY!!!!!!" and then he looked over at JC who looked at me and said "thanks alot." then they drove away. so i looked at chris and laughed and he was like "i heard it, it really does suck, something about 'im bring sexyback cuz these boys dont know how to act, oh baby ima love you'"

...then i woke up...singing this mystery song in my head that chris kirkpatrick was singing in my dream, and i've never even heard it before.

it's been a long time since i've had a 'WHAT THE FUCK' dream that was that bad....

my life in a nutshell right now: it blows.

that's about it.

So, this is why I love my friends.


In responce to this image:





I have this convorsation:

So starting last night I read every single one of the entries I've made since the first one in like...2003, and I've come to a conclusion.

I bitch alot. Seriously. Nick, Brian, Geoff, Dominos...god, why didn't anyone ever just tell me to shut the fuck up?! My god Moe.

Jesus H. Christ on a rubber crutch.

Althougt reading all those entries did make me miss Brian (in fact I had a dream about him last night) and Geoff, who I've been thinking about alot lately anyway *sigh*

Well I'm off to read some Stephen King. Then sleep. Tomorrow is Friday, get to see all my GANGSTAs. 3903 baby!

CHECK IT OUT! THE GIRL IS ALIVE!

yup. it's been a long...many months.

stuff happened. some of it was good, some of it was bad. if you're important enough you know about it.

aren't you all glad that it took me 4 months to post this?

So the college thing is going good. I don't know, I haven't updated lately cuz I'm living it and lovin it, not...writing it and...not living it...

as of now, I just dropped my least favorite class, and I'm sitting watching Fight Club with Tess. Could life get any better?

This weekend will rock. Saturday...ohhh baby. HIstory of Violence, booze, and LOTR...sara, I can't fucking wait.

So. I figured out what I wanted to get for my tattoo.

And got it.

Check it out.

"marisha is so trashed, oh my god, wow, i cant even believe it!"

...happy first night...

Ugh, I'm all...depressed...not cuz of college, cuz I could care less about that, but I just am. I feel like im just gonna start sobbing annyyy second now....

Want to die.

Feel like crap.

Ew.